Sitting here reflecting and sinking into the changes, big uprootings, new chapters, curveballs and lessons of this year… Man have they meant business! It has been one of the most confusingly yet reshaping & coming together- kind of years of my soon 25 year old life…
I have stepped over this later part of the year to a whole new way of being and living with time and the moment. I laid behind me alarm clocks —nearly or most days since October— for my pure intuitive and biological clock to guide me fearlessly and in full trust that it is going to bring and has already brought me exactly to where I am supposed to be, right here right now… It turned out, I needed to break up with my old life and old self completely – perhaps a tad bit more dramatically so than necessary.. But Oh Well, it got me here, right?
It made me shake my life situation and choices upside down more than once and nearly leave and pause my uni studies to pursue filming a project that meant me returning to Southern Africa, only to realise I wanted to reap what I had sown in 2017 and continue what I have started to build in this new place… A strong core, state of heart and mind, a solid base academically, mentally and emotionally before setting off for new shores yet again in 2020. My wings are stronger by me not leaving in the energy of escapism but teaching me that in whatever choices I make, the vibration in which I make them needs to be as solid and grounded as I want the practical unfolding of it to be. Aka, good decisions made in a calm heart and collected mind = good and aligned future. I have committed to this journey for myself and the patience practiced, I know, will help me sort and siv out the gold in life from the other semi precious materials. At the same time, I have learnt that the clarity of my ambitious goal setting paired with an openness and willingness to change and growth when it is beneficial and called for — is THE golden key!!!
I have learnt that the process is short and lengthy at the same time… Life… And you cannot twist and turn things into being. You can however surrender to the silent yet oh so present FLOW of things (like an undercurrent and alternate pure reality that is always there if you dare meet it) and in that way bring yourself to the same level of creative energy where you are in charge of your process as long as you shape up and stay on path with your energy… Then miracles come into being that I never could have dreamed of, coming into my life suddenly and effortlessly. On the outside, people have seen me walk about my life as usual, nearly… On the inside, I’ve been reborn and have a brand new way of connecting and communicating. My body cannot be in one place anymore that my heart isn’t in. And I am learning to bring my body deeper into where my heart and mind is, too. I have decided that this new way is one I will always remain dedicated to: a raw, honest, in flow, listening and in touch kind of direct communication with the universe that tells me pretty much, (!!!) where I need to be, at what time, in what way and how I will get there. With not much information beforehand, but with so many angels and all the tools I need beside me in all shapes and forms as long as I just go with it… Ride the wave… It was scary at first. But I’m becoming accustomed to this pure path by the day.
I have also found my horses again this year in a more profound way than ever before and I truly have realised I want to live a life with these beings around me as much as I can. I know I have sacred work to do with them, and with children, artists, and healers of this Earth..! I am finding more of my tribe and I know it clearer than ever when I see a new bro or sis in crime. I do not hold back my energy when it is required to speak freely and clearly. I allow myself. To shine, exist, hold and take and give space… In harmony and unison with everything.
I am awaiting this 2019 with wide open arms, rooted feet and a purely in touch heart. I am ready to be a better human for my soul and ours. I Am Ready for the future. Ready for you and you and you. Ready for all ‘things’ to flow my way that is meant for me! As it is, when it is, how it is, in the best way for my higher self, and I will know.
I will just know!
Let the Old Year be thanked and said goodbye to,
Let the New Year Begin!