Kliver av arlanda express som att jag är så mycket lättare än 40kg väskor. Tror aldrig jag varit gladare i att komma hem, och det säger något efter detta magiska liv med många äventyr fram o tillbaka. Hoppar av tåget ut i kylan i en röd satinkimono som jag försöker övertyga alla blickar visst passar svensk vinter. Hoppar in mot spottkoppen med en rygga på magen, en på ryggen, en väska i handen. Lättare än nånsin. Det ni ✨Hemma, slask o allt, hemma, barrskogar, hemma, espresso house, hemma, familjen o djuren, hemma, staden. Stockholm. Hemma. This land of my roots and heart I’m back.
There is no way
I will receive clarity
Unless I allow myself to trench
Deep and grinding
Willingly or not
Thru the clueless unknown
To walk without enjoying the soil, soul under your feet
Is just as having a voice without expressing it – lifes too short for it
To do any successful outer peace work
One must first come to love the inner spirit
That connection is called gratitude
Gratitude is doctor
We move, we dance, write, sing, ride, scream to make space
For that gratitude
Let it live
Things really aren’t so separate and confusing as we think they are.
They become so, in our humanness.
As I live on, stepping forth, stepping back, stepping into me, I learn that being human will not within my lifetime, be without work. Inner work, outer work, whatever work. I have resisted work not because of the work itself, (I actually can’t wait to do what I came here to do!), but the system which rules it.
The point we’re missing is, you get to decide.
You get to decide your life’s work.
Your life’s work doesn’t have to look like others’.
Your life’s work can be fulfilling and satisfying for both soul and body needs:
Love, and money.
It may or may not be easy
But it will be true.
As a 5 year old, being asked questions like,
“what do you want to do when you grow up”,
“who are you going to be?”,
“Hi. I see you. What makes you happy?”
In this way of being towards each other, unconsciously we are saying you are enough now as you are. You are enough without your future you’s riches. You are enough without your future you’s friends, even! You are enough simply because you are. Here.
The patriarchal, the few-ruling-the-rest society we live and are born into, he wires us from deep within our bone marrow on how we look at ourselves and our very life purpose.
I feel it’s as if he wants me to think that I owe him and that he is greater than me, that us, than you.
He is where he is because there was a time people asked for a leader.
It doesn’t mean he gets to rule our lives now.
“We can honor and enhance the attributes of something by placing it in an area that is aligned with appropriate energy.”
The freedom released when in a space where such an attitude is held is beyond all comforts. It sheds us of the fear of accomplishing a certain amount of whatevers, before my body takes her last breath. It means I can live more fully in a body more ready to be. Because I let myself breathe.
Then that breath takes on legs, she wants to dance
Then the dance wants a voice, to relieve and let go
Then that song wants to spread
It wants to knock on people’s doors
And sing you are alright
You are a gift
It may or may not be easy
But it will be true.
Awake when others are sleeping
Laughing when others are weeping
Fighting for soul
When others for pride
Don’t stop, don’t doubt
Ride, ride, ride or die
I am all life
Light is carried through me
Guiding the lonely night
I come from where the sun hides for many months
I am not afraid of the dark
By Blanca Linder 1/11-2016
Blanca Linder, midnight on a fullmoon 16th October 2016
Sharing a piece of my heart, this full moon night when the world is in such utter chaos. I can’t stay quiet any longer:
I have danced and I have cried and I have ran and I have ridden lately
I have not felt sane
I have slowly started to feel sanely insane.
I yoga myself as a way of surviving
Whether the yoga is asanas,
or nothing at all
It’s hard when your heart has jumped out of your body for a bit.
Because the world is not whole and therefore you aren’t either
But you choose to stay in love
You need to recenter.
I want to learn how to always recenter, before acting.
Many times in my life, I have been living in between.
In between worlds.
The you-and-me worlds,
But also between our celestial world and this Earthly reality.
I have been pulled down through meetings with other humans, often not in grounded and safe ways but violently, my heart being so torn, in ways not in respect with my being.
I don’t want to blame people ’cause they’re all just human. But right now I wish there were more of us connected children, people fighting for the light, that were in charge of our world as we know it today. Instead of assholes and Trumps and bombers and Jesus-playing-power-men, or -women for that matter.
To speak your language for a moment:
Y’all need to wake the fuck up
Yes I said that
Please wake up
I turn now to my deepest insides.
I turn now to my deepest anchors
And purest truth
I am iron heavy, and I am feather light.
I am what I am what I am how I am.
And I’m being so clear about it.
This is for you and me.
Feel that opening up?
That letting go?
‘Tis the sound of you moving higher;
Do it with core of body
Do it in connection with roots,
Not disconnecting them
So that you can disappear,
Instead letting them
Grow you higher
Deeper into yourself
Feel that gratitude?
That acceptance of flaws
‘Tis the feeling of grace
Feel it knowing support
Never alone or without speech,
Child you are heard and held
Carried onward and shelled
To betterment and richness
Ability to listen
Ability to act –
This time ’round;